—greatchain—

here i am again, having similar feelings of frustration, tiredness, boredom. don’t get me wrong, I AM HAPPY with my life, but there is something in my mind… a familiar nagging thought that just fuels my uncertainty over the decisions i made in the past. i tried not to think of anything negative, and to set things straight: i am a very positive thinker! however, the so-called nagging thought makes me think all the time. before, i simply dismiss it, then it becomes clearer and i still tried to suppress it like it is as normal as riding a cab full of people during a rush hour… but after a few more days (or something longer than that i believe), i just can’t ignore it anymore.  i tried to shove it off  but its still there. … and there comes conflict. conflict leads to stress, stress leading to frustration… and i’m tired of it. yes, i am! therefore, i have to decide now. and i think i  already have. just wait and see. maybe, its about time i move on and get this over with. maybe it will make me feel better. i don’t expect to feel superb after, but having relief over tension is way better. i have to do it sooner than i realized.

may God bless me on this… i know He does all the time.